Anonymous asked: Imagine Bucky is part of The Avengers and is still getting bits and pieces of his memory here and there. Then comes a horrible memory. He remembers killing Howard and Maria and making it look like an accident..
imagine bucky being completely distraught about it, because tony is his friend and he’s afraid, selfishly, he thinks, that this is going to ruin that, because why on earth would tony want to be around him knowing that?
he goes to steve with it, because he doesn’t know what to do - he can’t keep that from tony, but he has no idea how to tell him - and steve just shrugs and says, “buck, he already knows. he’s had all that declassified hydra intel for months, and i’m pretty sure he doesn’t hate you.”
"why not?" bucky asks. "i mean, he probably should. i would, if i were him."
"i’m not gonna pretend it didn’t upset him at first, but he knows you, and he knows that wasn’t you. look, no one hates natasha for her time with the kgb or clint for that time loki turned him against us or bruce for the things he does when the other guy comes out, so why do you think you’re any different?"
bucky’s silent for a moment. “i guess it’s easier to forgive other people than it is to forgive yourself,” he says finally.